Just came back from chalet… did I enjoy myself? omg… hao shi tai… was drunk last night… huiying they all told me I was very noisy and created a fool of myself… did i? I really don’t rmb le… I only rmb kun hao scolded me… Huiying said I was heavy leaning on her… I accompanied yi ting to the toilet twice… clement in lala land… no more… I did talk a lot… but I forgot what I’ve said… this is the first time I got drunk… so pai seh…

Being drunk is a GOOD way to avoid certain things… believe me… when you are drunk, you’ll feel happier… you would feel as if you’re floating… nobody can control you… you get all the freedom you wann… you would be able to forget things for a while…

But it’s not too good to be drunk, coz you’ll disturb others… sorriees ppl, for being too noisy last night… hahas…

Although it feels good to be drunk, I don’t think I will wann to drink like this again… I don’t think I would wann to touch alcohol again… unless I have to… in certain situations??

When I woke up in the morning, was slping beside Huiying… hahas… checked out at 10plus… dunno what happen to him… keeping all to himself… I haven done ath wrong except being drunk… he got off at his bus stop and went home… on his way, he injured himself. To avoid a car accident, he hit sth… I forgot what it is… I have deleted all msges… which caused non-stop bleeding and he went to hospital I think… he himself is drunk… not me nia… I’m much betta… at least I’ve slept… he din slp at all… the doctor said he would not be able to rmb things… but I don’t think so… I think he knows eth… he’s so damn strange and I don’t like it… he’s forgetting jialu’s kite theory…

Went to Jurong entertainment’s kopitiam with huiying and kun hao for lunch before going home… sorriees arx, Huiying and kun hao… I’m not trying to waste food, I do feel hungry but I juz don’t have the appetite… I’m very tired, giddy and sick… I juz wanna slp… that’s why I din managed to finish the food, not dieting… really… sorriees worz…

Only hua dong really understands me… or I should say… he’s the only one who guessed it right… he knows what I mean… hais…

Here goes, jialu’s feelings-of-the-day…

1. tired
2. pai she
3. shi tai
4. terrible
5. lousy
6. irritated
7. annoyed
8. puzzled
9. slpy
10. sick

alright, ending here now… juz had my shower… much more refreshed… but my mind is still confused… maybe I’m the one trying to make things complicated…

Huiying is right about something…

I am not who I am anymore… I have become so indecisive styms I think I sux to the core…