hey hey hey.. today is the last day of the year.. but it's still abt the same for me huh.. i don't think there's a difference except that school is starting on wed and i'll be getting back the exams' results.. went to seoul garden with dear today.. it wasn't cheap la.. and i did try to eat as much as i could.. kept burping.. hahas..

i enjoyed myself with you although i had a long long wait.. but it's okiee.. as you've mentioned, it can train my patience to better when dealing with you next time..

but still..
let me make some wishes.. =)

i yearn:
- for more time with sb.. there is a need for that..
- for better results.. i wann dad and mum to be happy..
- for more gatherings with P.R.B.. we need to keep-in-touch..
- for all my friends to love and be loved.. styms, there are jux some things which cnt be mentioned.. hahas..
- for more wishes to be fulfilled this coming year..

okiee.. there's enough.. let's not be greedy..

all in all, i've had a fast and "new" year 2007.. entering poly.. meeting new faces.. getting to know and understand them.. although it's only 13, it's still not easy to bond okiee.. i'm trying i'm trying.. and to cope with work and projects.. not forgetting, i wann more time for freedom and to be by his side.. i'm contented to be jux beside you, lesser arguments and coldwars..

SMILES aLL!! =D

Posted on 31st Dec.

don't expect ath from me this time.. no more.. why use hard ways on me and expect me to go crawling to you.. shooting words that way isn't capable of scaring me anymore..

i did you no wrong..

Posted on 29th Dec.

nobody, nobody, no one..
none..


Posted on 28th Dec.

i've enjoyed myself tremendously.. on the both days..

went out with him yesterday and done some shopping as well as talkings.. it was nice initially.. but it got terrible at night.. i don't believe that you really don't give it a damn.. it's basically impossible.. no one's basically able to feel nth and okiee if he or she had heard sth from somebody, a friend who don't have the need to lie.. i doubt you have really trust me wholeheartedly before.. i don't wann you to think i'm okiee with you saying it.. i'm not a cheap person.. i'm not as unfeeling as you think.. never should have made an unforgivable mistake..

although i slept for only a few hours after some hard time i've been through.. i woke up this morning at 7.30am.. made some sandwiches for P.R.B's gathering at west coast.. i can't forget this thing at any moment, but i smiled.. i cracked jokes, played mahjong cards, played pool, took neoprints, watched movie... i had a good time with P.R.B.. it's the last gathering this year.. but i really feel them with me.. thanks for the fun times you guys gave me..

i dunno what's gonna happen.. and i dunno what to do.. this thing is real complex.. it might have infinity ways to be solved, but i din managed to get any solutions to solve mine yet..

i will pull through..
but hopefully,
with you..

posted on 27th Dec.

Okiee, winner.. as you have mentioned, here goes.. but before I start, I have to sympathies with my poor gal, SM.. she’s got to create a blog, for this! xP

Alright, to be fair to all sweeties, let’s follow the orders of name okiee..

Chin Yan Qiu – she doesn’t like being known as cool~.. let’s use persevering to describe this lady okiee.. she’s like a butterfly.. waiting for the right time to spread her wings.. to let many many ppl see her beautiful pattern of wings.. in time to come, she’s gonna be different okiee.. =)

Eng Shin Miin – she’s my deary daughter.. but one of the busiest.. she’s like the tortoise.. having the never-say-die attitude to complete things, but in a slow slow way… and she always hide in the shell, so it’s never easy to locate her.. you know what I mean okiee, 有执照的飞行员!! =P

Goh Yan Ling – omg, she’s the one.. she called me a loser.. hahas.. she’s my 太太太太太嫲.. although she’s old, she’s not slow.. and she can speak like the rabbit.. one of pooh's best friend.. she can speak very confidently and fluently.. only if i can have three-quarter her speaking skills.. not asking for too much right?? hahas.. =P

Koo Hui Ying – she can be tame, she can be crazy.. let her be the horse.. she’s nv complaining even if she’s got tons to do.. but she always mention that she haven started doing this and that, so girl.. start now! Hahas.. why a horse? horses are known to be tame.. but it can go crazy running around when it’s frightened.. she’s crazy coz she can keep the whole house spick and span.. hmm, a little off huh.. x)

Ng Li Ru Linda – what else but that? Hahas.. she’s wise, jux like the owl.. she’s able to cope and manage with the time she’s given.. still, don’t stress too much okiee.. so long you have tried to do sth with your best, it’s more than enough.. once mentioned from her that it’s nv easy to make everyone happy.. yesh, I agree! But it’s nv difficult to make her smile.. and and, nth is more precious than health.. do take care! =)

Tan Xue Li Shirley – she’s the tiger-ess.. coz there’s a Chinese saying.. 老虎不发威，当她是病猫.. quite true on her la.. she’s always smiley smiley.. but there’s always a limit to eth huh.. so let’s not take her smiles for granted.. but but, who’s fiercer? The tiger or tigeress? Stay optimistic okiee.. there’s nth that cnt be settled if you give it some time and effort.. xP

Tay Xin Yi – ohoh.. she’s the donkey in the group.. coz she likes eeyore.. hahas.. I’m not a bear okiee.. well, she’s the donkey coz she’s quiet and shy.. she always smile despite troubles and woes overwhelming her.. she’s got the shy shy look when she’s got sweet sweet things to share.. AND, she loves shopping jux so much.. x)

In a nutshell, P.R.B is loved!

I’m not sweet-talking here okiee.. jux being observant.. xP

hoping for the WHOLE P.R.B to meet up whenever possible, a meal will suffice okiee..

although we don’t keep in contact always, we know always that 7 girlies are there for us.. x)

nobody likes to purposely show their emotions to anyone if possible, but there are many ways you can use to relieve emotions..

If laughing helps, LAUGH..
if crying helps, CRY..
if emo-ing helps, EMO..
if talking helps, SHARE!

Stay Cheerful darlings and rmb I’m always there to listen, no matter how slpy I am… x)

Everything has a LIMIT except LOVE! No doubt, you can have many loved ones, but there can only be a true love that will accompanied you for the rest of your life..

heehees..

Yep, not forgetting to mention, I love sb.. =]

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!


Posted on 25th dec.

today was awesome.. yet tired.. =)

went to the church service with hy.. it was totally new for me.. first visit... first impression: everybody is so united and high.. so many many ppl, you will nv believe how many ppl there are unless you see it yourself.. all clapping and singing christmas songs.. felt warmth and touched in the heart.. and after that, the pastor came to speak.. he talked abt the "realistic" of life.. how each ppl get treatments, whether they deserve it or not.. he's so true abt one thing..

"people smile with you when you succeeded, but deep down their heart, they are jealous and wondering why they are not the ones.."

well, who wouldn't wann to succeed in life? who will only wann to see people being successful?

although the service is at expo, it is worth the first time.. an experience..
but i do admit, i felt restless after some time hearing the pastor talk.. hmmm..

anyway, the food at expo was nice.. had chicken salad and cheese fries introduced by hy..

after which, we went to jp to meet my bro.. gotten some gifts there and went to imm next.. gotten more stuff at imm.. met IVY on the way though... xP
and finally, when we are abt to part with hy to go for dinner with my mum while she goes home.. she managed to get sth to her liking.. hahas..

the more you try to get a thing, the more you cnt find the perfect one..

so?

TRY TO let nature takes its course.. =P

misses..
no matter where i am, you are always in me.. =)

posted on the 23rd dec.

alright.. today was nice.. and i had a great day with him... jux a rough post.. not going into the details.. i'm tired... x)

started with a movie, National Treasure: Book of Secrets.. it was an exciting movie.. very nice puzzles along the way.. it's amazing to see how they crack the cases and compete with the baddie to reach the city of gold first..

after which, took the imm shuttle bus.. wanted to try to look for some gifts but none caught my attention.. so well, we went to Mac for a meal and saw fang fang.. she's one of the manager there and she sure looks like one.. hahas.. confident.. =)

then, jalan jalan and took 105 to SP for the WAVES concert.. with shir and sh.. same thing, the crowd.. and it was supposed to be free-seating.. so we went earlier.. but who knows, we can only enter at 7pm.. i was like, isn't the whole thing gonna start at 7pm sharp?? goodness, so everyone queued to enter.. the four of us din queue la... hoping for the entrance at the second level to open although it nv will.. hahas... so we went to "join" the queue with shir's sis.. and a "little" thing happen after that.. oh well.. jux skipped it.. i enjoyed the concert.. quite la.. although i dunno if there's a story behind the acts.. i prefer act 2 bax.. coz it was light and the costumes were splendid.. hahas..

supper there after.. had zu chao.. =P

so, all in all, eth was still alright.. except some embarrasing moment here and there.. hahas..

i miss you already.. it's always harder to part at night.. how i wish there's no need to.. hmmm...

watched WARLORDS with him today.. the show was alright... but the ending wasn't really too great.. but anyway, i did enjoy his company today..


I WANN TO BAKE... many many things..

hols are meant for one to do what i like too.. so well... =)

watching romantic princess now.. it's quite nice.. and definitely sweet.. hahas.. but agn.. it's jux a tale la.. quite impossible such things will happen de..

anyway, went to the beach ytd.. at sembawang park.. it din rain a drop.. the wind was strong.. nice but it made the patches on my hands and legs more.. seen a doctor today.. hopefully the medications given will help..

going out tml.. in such condition... omg.. hahas...

it's so bored la.. i don't like spending holidays like that..

woken up at 12noon today.. went for lunch with dad and mum.. and bought ice cream at the kings' factory.. and that's when i found patches on my body.. big, red patches.. i only realised coz it's itchy ma.. hmmm... but it's betta now i guess.. not really red now.. jux big as usual... hopefully i will be well tml or else i will have to stay at home the whole day agn.. wrapped in blanket.. no fan..

i wann sth special to happen... i wann happenings...

NO LIFE...

i've done sth new on the 14th dec'07!! x)

went to lavender with grandpa and grandma via mrt and buses only this morning.. no cab to or fro... this is the first time in my 17 years of living.. it's nice... and it wasn't as worrying as i have expected.. not all people are "typical singaporeans" la... there are aso nice people around.. offering seats to people who needs it more than them... hmm... it's a nice experience... quite pleasant... =)

the craving to bake comes back agn when hy was asking abt the oil.. hmmmm... i will do it.. soon...

and it's back to the square one agn... always like that... the lines are always smooth-sailing.. but the corners are like the ice berg.. and we will have difficulties doing a good job.. how come huh... i don't like la..

today's happenings..

hahas..

went to 2 temples this morning.. it was alright this time round.. not many ppl.. not too smoky.. and after that, went bugis with mum in the afternoon... after walking for a few hours, and i finally managed to get a wallet and a bag, which i like okieeokiee la.. somehow, i think that bag don't really suits me bax... hmmmm.. nvm.. will try bringing it out for a few times and get some suggestions.. if it really don't suit.. then i'll pass it to mum.. coz she likes the bag.. hahas.. but we can still share la.. if she wanns... hahas.. then went jp walk walk around and home we went..

will be going to lavender to collect passports with grandpa and grandma tml.. and ee herng will aso be going.. hahas.. it's gonna be history can... omg.. =)

千言万语，都比不上你的一句“我爱你”。。

finally finally, exams are over and here comes the sweetest part.. holidays!!

NICE!

and my fever has aso subsided... coincidence?

oh well, nvm! it's over..

dear came to fetch me today.. it's been so many days since i met you.. i miss your smiles, your scoldings.. your naggings.. and you! =)

going shopping with mummy and bro tml... but will go toa payoh's temple with dad to pray first..

i miss these care-free life.. and i wanna go shopping la!!!!

the weather's getting colder and the rain's heavier.. i'm getting weaker and weaker.. fever, sores.. all over the body.. and what a lousy stomach is this? aarrghhh.. luckily, tml is the last day of exams.. i will get through.. i muz too..

i have been having a hard time.. hopefully my grades will not get affected.. thanks to all the frens who stay close.. thanks dear.. too... =)

why now?? arrghhh.. i don't like that feeling.. one moment i'm okiee, going around talking and pressing wendy's blue-black.. the other moment down.. body aches and throwing up.. i still have 3more papers to go.. please.. let me get through...

but, i'm glad..
my brother has grown up.. he cares.. and he helps..

i have jux realised that all my posts are rotating basically on the same topics..

NO LIFE??!!!

hmm... i don't think so... although all the posts are on the same thing.. i din really mention what's behind these things.. they're jux bits and pieces of the puzzles..

anyway, common test is coming.. starting tml.. there are still things to do..

since there are many things to do, then why am i still posting?

i'm not in the study mood yet.. maybe later.. the weather's simply too good now..
(EXCUSES!)

i will do it later.. it's always a wish to wann to do dad and mum proud.. yan qiu's right... nobody will always be there to motivate you unless you wann to be behind them.. always depend on yourself to get things done.. it's always betta to be more independent.. who is willing to spend their whole life waiting on you??

nobody is born to be a slave..
nobody is born to be the princes or princesses.. needless to say, the kings and queens..

that's how realistic things can be styms.. jux learn to accept it..

time is passing really fast...

in a blink, year 2007 is gonna be history.. it's soon time to reflect... ....

etym during aerobics, the instructor, fiona, will play us some music.. which allows us to follow the rhythms, the beats, the feel.. i esp. like the beautiful girl.. that song always come when i'm so tired and sweaty.. but it kept me going.. who wouldn't wann to have well-toned figure? hahas.. anyway, mentioned this suddenly coz i rmbed it suddenly la.. hahas..

i will study.. dear is the catalyst that keeps me motivated.. i wann to study hard, get good results.. and announced to dad and mum.. it's always easier said than done though.. everybody is studying and pushing themselves now.. i wann to too.. but the mood is still not too right.. hmmm...

lastly, i will like to mention how much i will like to spend the rest of my life with you.. i am strong yet fragile.. i cnt stand ppl breaking my heart de.. i'm sorriees for doing sth so bad to you the last time.. i will heal your scar with time and love okiee.. hahas..

styms, ppl might think and start asking.. why is this girl so antipathy? one moment she hated him, wishing he's nv there at all.. the other loving as if there's no tml.. worried that he might leave anytime.. hmm.. i'm not sure why i let go the other time.. but i think it's really fate that brought us back tgt agn.. not contacting after that time for a few months, then started to meet the very first time after that to hougang mall for my madness.. and continuing to get closer day by day..

memories flooding back.. we haven nv talk abt my past without you.. or yours without me..

nevertheless, the hard times are over.. now that we're tgt, we'll treasure the times and forget the past.. i'm not gonna bring up this matter anymore.. looking into the future.. only with you.. i broke promises for you.. but i'm won't break the promises i make with you.. for you.. to nobody but me, you're jux too good to be true..

i love you

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BAOXIN!
alright, now you're the same as the other 18s.. lao cha bo.. xP but it's nice right?? hahas...

had aerobics today.. having really bad backaches.. struggling to move on tgt with the whole group.. it was omg.. terribly difficult to.. even walking is tedious, needless to say the 2rounds etym before aerobics.. thanks dayna for walking throughout the whole 2rounds with me.. thanks wendy for always showering me with care.. it's always jux a msg at the right time that counts.. it's very thoughtful of you.. =)

heard from the girls they are gonna celebrate bx's b'dae after her tuition at clementi today.. sorriees for not being there worz.. did i miss out ath? hmm.. tml the girls will share and it's the last day of the term.. looking forward to term break.. it's time to rest and go on serious diet.. x)

you always say you have, you did, you will.. but it's definitely nicer if you can put your words into actions.. read sth from the magazine today.. a guy mentioned that guys should take more initiative to do certain things.. coz by doing so, your girl will feel loved and constantly being cared for.. yesh, this is selfish.. but styms, that's jux what i desire.. which girl wouldn't wann to be cared for, be held and be protected like princesses?

EM-- i need to let sth out.. i jux hate it when you're doing it.. coz the process is simply too long styms..

seoul garden.. x(

things happen.. so much so that i couldn't take it.. so many miscommunications and misunderstandings.. but thankfully, eth's okiee now.. i still love you as much, and even more more more than before..

although i did not managed to get ath today, i've spent all the time with dear and watched fred claus.. very nice! it's got a very strong christmas-feel... aso a very warming storied-show..

having hating times now.. eaten quite a lot today.. so much that he tried asking me to stop eating.. hahas.. i'm jux trying to compress the pain away.. but to no avail..

i have started some revision today.. tml i will do more.. my dear is smart.. i wann to be as smart as him.. more compatible that way.. hahahas.. xP

things happen.. so much so that i couldn't take it.. so many miscommunications and misunderstandings.. but thankfully, eth's okiee now.. i still love you as much, and even more more more than before..

although i did not managed to get ath today, i've spent all the time with dear and watched fred claus.. very nice! it's got a very strong christmas-feel... aso a very warming storied-show..

having hating times now.. eaten quite a lot today.. so much that he tried asking me to stop eating.. hahas.. i'm jux trying to compress the pain away.. but to no avail..

i have started some revision today.. tml i will do more.. my dear is smart.. i wann to be as smart as him.. more compatible that way.. hahas.. xP

i jux wanna post.. even without much to...

it's been busy these days.. jux had a small test today but it's 10%.. nice.. this is the second most difficult paper which i have done.. i din put in enough effort to study... therefore, i will not expect much.. but common test is next week... i can do it.. but i still dunno how to draw an isometric drawing yet.. does anyone know?? goodness.. the thought of it makes me sick... no matter how i do it, i have to get it known before saturday...

tml is gonna be a relaxing day... no school.. going shopping with dear.. he's ending at 10am.. i wanna buy quite a few thingys...

after tml.. i am gonna start.. it's gonna be tiring.. x|

thanks wendy! =) for that msg.. it makes me feel so warm down there... really.. it came jux at the right time - when i felt so lost then... ...

photo.. as requested by ms tay mulan.. this one is the best and clearest! x)


went prawning today.. with family this time round.. it was kinda bored.. din managed to catch any prawns at all.. dunno it's the prawns that are smart or i'm too slow.. omg.. 5 times i missed them.. nvm nvm, it's jux a pastime.. hahas...

after that went to ang mo kio for dinner.. all the way there but i don't think the food is really nice like it's known for... but the queue was super long.. dunno where all these ppl comes from.. hahas..

went home thereafter.. jux completed the tutorial i missed out-- purposely.. hahas.. sianss de lorx.. i should have done them before going for prawning.. wouldn't have to do and rush now.. -_-"

ending the post with some words for dear.. hahas.. hmmm..

mr tan's wedding was fabulous.. hahas.. nice and it's great.. saw quite a few ex-mates.. it was kinda different... hahas.. but went off quite early.. din managed to really catch up with the rest.. but it's okiee la..

hahas.. anyway, due to some miscommunications and misunderstandings.. things happen.. hahas.. but but, everything was resolved and we went to the cathay to watch enchanted.. we referring to me, dear, shir and sh.. hahas... the show was nice.. really sweet and it's a combination of fairy tales.. worth the $9.50.. hahas...

after the show, parted our ways.. think shir and sh went museum???? hahas.. goodness.. anyway, dear and i walked to esplanade.. xP he's so nice today.. helped me carry the bag all the way.. we took 502 after that and he went for his match.. good luck dear.. =)

my tummy kept aching.. =( i'm stupid enough to take the med last night.. hahas.. but the aching is probably due to over-hunger or sour sour or sth else la.. not too sure.. but i feel betta le now.. after dinner.. i ate crispy noodles.. it's nice.. and i love chocolate-pocky so so much...

i missed you dear, let's find some time to do it alright... hahahas... =P