bugging with projects and stuff.

tired.

my eyes keep blinking. it cannot open for long and i'm straining it with the lens.
oh well.

deary.
千言万语，一切竟在不言中。
I Love You.

freaking monday.

i'm okiee i'm okiee people.
really.
believe me that i can take good care of myself.
BX and CE had been real nice.. thanks, and sorriees for keeping mute all the time.
i'm not used to telling people everything as if i've been ill-treated or what.
i don't wish to tarnish the good image too.
stop falling sick, Wendy.
take care. =]

anyway, i saw an ex-classmate today.
she din see me though.
she was with his boii.
basically, the guy was rather giant next to her.
but they din mind it at all.
from the way i have seen them,
glancing at each other.
cuddling each other.
it's jux seem so perfect.

LOOK,
i'm not trying to compare anything here.
i won't go around telling people how complicated some things can be.
or rather, i prefer sharing people's happy life.
BX, don't fear i will feel hurt when you share. i feel happy for you too.
PC mentioned to Wendy that i have a nice voice. and i remembered until now. hahas.
that's what i mean styms, a little something helps.

all i have to say is, i have made friends in poly.
who really cared for me.
i'm okiee people.
thanks for staying close.

i'm okiee dear.
let's get over with this soon. =)

today was a "voice-ful" day.. omg..

had my CATS presentation, and it's finished. you wouldn't know how glad i am to be over with this thingy.. i was so happy about it..

but..
i am not please with my brother's results at all.
it was disappointing.
but i don't blame him, nor do i scold him.
for i din try my best to help him during that crucial period too.
and i know he had done his best.
he's improved so much, although it's still not enough. . .

but..
at least i tried to help him NOW.
hopefully,
it's not too late for him to wake up.
i will scold whoever jokes about his results!
i promised.
that's the least i can do now.
i have been talking to bro since he came home from 5plus.
after which, i talked to dad and mum till 8plus.
non-stop, getting louder and louder somemore.

so well..
drinking plenty of water now.
hopefully, it will help.
if not, =X

and and, i wonder why i'm fancy posting now.
the time is simply not too right huh.
i have 2 tests tml, one using the laptop and the other oral test.
i wann to score for both. badly.
but, i can't get myself to study at all.
i am simply moodless over with my brother's thingy.
i cannot feel nothing be'coz he's my one and only brother.

hmmmmmm..

and, you are the one and only sweet in my heart.
there are ups and downs almost everyday.
thankfully, it don't last.
i do feel stronger after last night.
i will heel your words.

promises!

ILY =)

no. i don't understand. why is everyone so worked up over a small thing. can't a small class work together? settle the whole thing together happily.. no point all showing a black black face and finish off with this thing, then? how to enjoy the aftermath? still say wann bond. . . it's impossible to treat as if nothing has happened too de right?

hmmmm...

this is terrible..

compromise, compromise, compromise...

this has got to be another lesson to learn.

too many things are happening..
to me..
around me.. :[

i love this song in my playlist..

simply brightening up my mood in no time...

styms, a little something will help.

what's the point of trying when you know it's not gonna work..

again, and again.. it's never ending...

it's been a week.. and here i am..

the past week haven't been easy.. but it passes quite quickly la..

i have been reading blogs but not posting mine coz i've been really tired,
and life is basically revolving around school, work, assignments, projects, tuition..

and of course, my dear. i'm glad i got to meet you more this week.. i needed the time with you, even if it's only for a short while.. you are the precious catalyst.. i don't need sweet words from you, jux words from your heart makes my day.

bx said we shouldn't judge guys in the way we feel or during the times we argued, but look.. and i've learnt to look at different sides of a guy.. it's true that styms, what i rmb and grumble about are always the bad stuff, never rmbing the good ones... sorriees, deary!

things can be as simple as it looks.. it's jux the angle you take when you look at it..

don't try to compare unnecessary stuff and make your life real miserable. Just be contented with your life. everyone's got their own bad times. so well..

and thankfully, i have a good CATS lecturer la.. don't see him smiles all the time as if he doesn't care, he bothered to print the decision matrix for me.. save me some time from copying.. soon hua dong, change your opinion of Mr Lai Tai Lai.. he's hardworking de..

the old men, my EL TECH and DRAWING teacher.. they looked soooo 慈祥.. i simply cnt bear to talk back to them... they are such lovely teachers.. despite being old, they still try their best to impart their knowledge to us..

LEARN WELL, ppL!

there are small disputes abt projects here and there.. of course, time is the factor agn.. as the due date gets nearer, the more stress everyone will feel.. and start pin-pointing who din do ath, who's done the most.. who did or did not bother to make the effort..

IF you can spend some time to think about what to do for the project instead of wasting the time to think about how much you or the other members have done, i think the project will have been completed around this time.. don't blame others for not taking the first move.. ASK yourself, why didn't you make the effort to start the ball rolling?

speaking about this makes my blood boil.. CATS really really is OMG..

okiee, enough abt those!

I am looking forward to the holidays.. really looking forward!

stay healthy ppL!
and never forgetting you, chen shibing..
take really really proper care of yourself!


Posted on 19th Jan.

NEW YEAR RESOLUTION..

- be more healthy..
- keep up with planned schedule..
- earn more money..
- slim down..
- good GPA..
- be able to bake better stuff..

and definitely, have more time with him..

May all stay healthy and cheerful always.. =)


Posted on 12th Jan.

have been sick since yesterday.. seen a doctor today.. he mentioned that i can go without food these few days, until my stomach is well.. i can jux drink coke with salt.. hmmm... i told my parents about it but they said, don't ever do what the doctor said..

pains and sore all over the body.. fever.. gastritis problem..

i am so problematic la.. i don't like to be sick.. painful and i cnt finish my food.. it's a waste.. and mum will show her black face.. =\

i have to hold on though..
exams are coming..
tuitions have to go on..
projects and assignments..

poLy Life ain't easy after all..

and i missed the chance of going out with you today..
how can!! =|

Posted on 11th Jan.

oh.. i'm tired.. have been waking up early for school these 2 days..
but..
i'm hanging on there.. a few more weeks and it's over.. =)

thanks dear for making the effort..
i love you much..


Posted on 8th Jan.

okiee.. i've gotten back my results.. all of them.. but it wasn't really satisfying..

i need no comments, coz i think everyone got their own targets to reach..

Engineering Drawing
target: 72..
gotten: 65..

EG2
target: 90..
gotten: 87..

FQM
target: 85..
gotten: 90..

Eng. Mech
target: 100..
gotten: 94..

okiee.. that's about it.. i need to work hard now.. i am most disappointed with my drawing.. but i will try my best for the coming exams.. which is the week straight after CHINESE NEW YEAR.. oh my oh my...

coming up with resolution soon.. i have to.. probably tml.. =)

and good luck for ppl whose exams are round the corner.. strive on!

Posted on 7th Jan.

umm umm umm..

went to the library with dear today.. done some work with him.. i liked being with him.. =)

gonna get back all my results tml.. gonna post my NEW YEAR resolution soon.. hahas..

don't let me down, results..

Posted on 6th Jan.

today was okiee.. but i din get back any papers.. so well, monday will be the day.. anyway, school was okiee.. not too heavy.. had a lab quiz instead of lab session, ended early and went to dhoby ghaut.. had ri ben chun.. it was alright la.. hahas.. i prefer the company much much more..

going shopping with mummy tml, i expect sth..

x)

i'm not gonna let loose anymore..

Posted on 4th Jan.

had aerobics in the morning.. no need to run today.. coz it was drizzling.. how nice.. but CATS is hateful.. what can you think abt global warming? goodness.. i had a pretty hard time.. but still, the group managed to finish eth fast.. =)

and home after which.. went out to meet XY and HY for AVP2 at 5plus.. the movie is worth-watching.. it's not scary.. but disgusting.. yep.. as both the aliens and the predator are black, there are some parts which might not be seen clearly la.. coz it was pretty dark.. do watch the movie if you have the chance.. =P

i miss you! take care please! don't get hurt anymore.. slp early at night then you can pay full attn to the things going on around you.. okiee?


Posted on 3rd Jan.

today was the first day of school and there was PRACT..

unexpecting this..

but it's okiee.. the pract. session was fun.. and done quickly.. hahas.. gotten to know 2 out of 4 test results today.. will post when i got all.. but these 2 papers were not too well done and the other 2 are bound to be disappointing too i guess.. hopefully not.. arrghh, i have a sense of guilt now.. not gonna tok more..

i shouldn't compare..
the marks i get is what i deserve.. but i'm sick that time.. it's jux an excuse after all... hmmmmmm..

okiee..

enough of those irritating matters first..

met dear after school today and we went to jp for a meal.. gonna watch movie with the girls tml.. exciting.. but i'm not really ready for aerobics yet.. it's been like so long already.. omg.. jux try lorx.. xP

styms, things happen whether we wann it to happen anot.. they nv ask us before happening.. so when these happen, we have to learn to accept it..

i can be quite superstitious at times too.. =.=

and yesh, before i forgot.. i'm coming up with a NEW YEAR resolution.. real soon.. probably after i get back all my results.. was talking to ivy and mulan after we finished our pract., and i felt that mulan was right abt creating one and following it to realise some dreams.. =P

Posted on 2nd Jan.

it's the first day of the new year and i'm already feeling bored.. i don't wish for school to start.. aaarrrrgghhhhhhhh.. i don't wann school.. i've got to use my brain, my energy.. come on.... i do have betta use of them.. and i'm sure many things are bound to change.. although it's only been a short 20 days or so..

and, i haven had had enough sleep yet..

oh well..

sianss sianss sianss..
and i'm starting to go back emo-ing agn... =.-

what is life?!?!


Posted on 1st Jan.