went to the beach at east coast park today.. picnic, bbq, play sand... hmm... nice..

will go back there agn.. myself anot, before the hols... i like it there... and i wanna try to suntan.. nv been sun burnt before... so why not try sth new to have a memorable hol before hell starts agn... hmm...

=)

went to the audio house to get a new tv... nice..

and now, sianss sianss sianss..

it's happening in my house agn... mummy picking at bro's faults.. and bro shouting back... it's awful... i hate it... coz it's in the public... can't they think a little? well, anyway... there's nth i can do except to talk to bro... he's damn stubborn, and he likes to scold vulgar.. which makes it difficult for me to communicate with him... =S

anyway, din post ytd... was tired after the tuition.. but i got my first tuition pay! cash.. i felt great!! gave dad and mum 50bucks each... i'm a good gal..

hmm, will be going to the beach tml... hope it wouldn't rain... i will bring an umbrella... put it in my bag... hahas... alright alright... just reached home.. will post more tml.. =)

if i know just a way to stop time, and if i can decide when to stop it...
i will choose the time when we're tgt...
=)

maybe it's time to get ready to study le bax... used to it anot.. hmm.. time flies very quickly one... in no time, i'll be graduated from NP le... look forward to that bax... the earlier i start school, the earlier the hols will come..

went to causeway point with hd today.. he went there to get his phone casing changed... and we had kfc for lunch... ooopps... sorriees huiying... hahas...

anyway, will be meeting him tml... with no place in mind to go to agn... well, gonna crack my brain... i wanna spend my time wisely with you.. coz it's not easy to be free for a few hours with the type of schedule now... =|

hmm... getting lazier.. but should be there's nth much to post bax.. that's why nv post everyday...

hols might be sianss... but i think it's much better than having school... hmm, which is going to happen in 2weeks time... =S

anyway, came across a msg which i have saved in my phone long ago... it goes like this... 喜欢一个人不一定要天天见面，只要心里有他就可以了。

hmm... this line sounds great huh... school has started for you, mine's starting too.. this line is really impt now... gonna make me think and straighten out my thoughts betta...

sianss...

hmm, woken up early today... went out at around 2plus.. to imm... met dom to pass him some mooncakes and after that, went to sembawang with sb... and he afterwards accompanied me to the tuition house...

it's been a while since i met you.. and i enjoyed the short moment...

dear dear.. don't mind what dom had said in the msges juz now okiee? i know who's the one and what i wann... which will all be from you! well, i took your words real seriously.. and it hurts a little okiee... but i'm sorriees, i've been so selfish, din even bother to think abt how you'll feel after reading the msges... and i only cared abt throwing temper...

sorriees for making you "awkward" juz now.. =)
wo aii ni.. =)

hmm... it's been 3days.. and i haven met him once... won't be able to meet him in another 1 to 2days either... i have to be strong... and i am... =)

worked ytd.. it's quite alright la... not very tiring... and i have slacked for a short short while.. hahas.. and and, i'm so shocked that lee wei(DR) din ask me to do meddling house-keeping.. juz wiped the S-gates and the chairs of the legs at the affesco areas... great... punched card promptly at 2pm and talked to dom for a while then leave... will be visiting him tml... to pass him some mooncakes.. hahas...

it sux today morning.. went to climb the bukit timah hill despite the rain.. shan't mention further... not nice at all! lost a kg... not enough still.. there's still a long way to go.. will i be able to slim down by then? hmm... sianss... anyway, have to try la.. hahas, went for sakae sushi juz now.. omg... ate quite a lot sia...

hmm.. hope sth nice will happen tml... these few days have been quite aimless... =S

misses, misses and misses... you are the idiot of my life, in my life...

HAPPY B'DAE SHIRLEY!

today is a tiring day... tuition with 3kiddos.. very tired.. don't wanna layout the details... anyway, today's tuition money is hard-earned!!

i miss you! you gotta take good care of yourself okiee dear? get enough slp everyday and work when you feel like... don't force yourself to... i miss you so so much... hmm, i wanna meet you soon... :(

hmm... made moon cakes today... my hand so tiring... and the blue blacks... =(

hahas... woke up early in the morning meet huiying at the market buy the baking stuff.. then after that rush home... started making at 10plus.. finishes only at 4plus... omg... hmm.. sb came around 2plus 3pm... i miss him so much..

hmm, sianss.. it will be another few days before we'll meet agn.. and and, school is going to start soon for SP... hatred! bleas..

met up with P.R.B today... everyone came... perfect.. =)

went to xinyi's house for HSM2 then go cartel for lunch.. after which, waited for the stupid meeting.. diao... it took an hour plus plus... hmmm... after that, went to meet up with the rest, pool at jurong entertainment... fun.. but the balls are hateful... =S

anyway, i enjoyed myself today... lots... it also stings having to part with the gals... i love them too... meet up agn soon okiee!

i miss you too.. idiot you! =P

hmm... hahas...

went to sb's house today.. his mum and dad never work... they cooked lunch together... hahas... i reached around 11plus, but his parents were out.. to the market... came back around 1plus 2pm... and every meal's got prawns.. no wonder sb loves them... hmm... hahas.. the dishes taste great... during the meal, sb's dad and mum keep talking and nagging him... especially his dad.. hahas... but his dad's words aren't wrong la.. hahas, but maybe the comparings can be lessen bax... =) and, i din feel too awkward this time.. much betta... hahas... and and, continued to stay there for a while until 4plus...

after that, went to jurong entertainment... for pool... hahas... played 5games with sb... and and i won the first game.. hahas... but for the next four games, well... he won... the second was because the black ball went in in the middle of the game.. we played "9-balls" for the fourth game... hmm... something different... hahas...

anyway, went home after that while sb go for soccer... hmm.. i don't like to part with him... it really stings... :(

hmm, looking forward to tml... although i won't be able to meet sb for the next two days... i'll be able to meet P.R.B... everyone will turn up okiee! =)

jialu misses sb... loads and loads.. it never lessen before... and it never will...
520.. =)

tired... very tired... my legs felt sooo wobbly..

my mood wasn't good during working.. do so many house-keeping today... wiping the displays, wiping the lamps and wiping the partition.. sianss..

but.. eth changes when work ends... especially my mood.. hahas.. met sb after work... although it's only for a few hours... heehees... we went to the kopitiam to eat lunch sia.. and he bought donuts... hahas.. =)

although it's sx who did that accidentally, i still think it's sweet... hahas..

with you, i'll be easily contented... =)

went to the treetop today...

with dad and mum, together with 2nd aunt and 4th aunt's family.. omg... it had been raining even when we went for breakfast... but it suddenly stopped... and my 2nd aunt insist we go climb the treetop...

well, in the end, we went... the path was muddy and flooded with water.. but the little kiddos were so enthu and running all the way... but, after a short while, ee herng wanted to be carried... omg.. and slowly, xinle and verlin aso wanted to be piggyback... hence, they took turns.. and 2hrs later, we finally reached the treetop.. and it was quite high... i think i have 惧高症 huh.. hahas.. am quite afraid coz it's quite windy and the bridge kept shaking.. hahas.. but still, i walked all the way and off we went agn, took the ordinary path back.. and it's another 2hrs... goodness, it's a long 10kms...

my legs are soooo tired now... and i have to work tml.. at cartel... omg..

hmm, sianss.. in another week's time, school is gonna start for SP.. nobody to go shopping with le la.. and sb's time table... so long... die le la.. i wanna meet him more eack week sia... hmm... shall try to... and we muz.. =)

today is my 100th post.. i've been very happy... and it's been a very meaningful day for me... BUT, time passes too quickly le..

had spend my day with sb... =)

reached his house around 10plus.. hahas... his dad was around.. and he had cooked.. well, i was so shy to sit down with his dad at the dining table... in fact, i don't dare... although his dad is hospitable.. not at all fierce... but, halfway through the meal, his dad put some food into his bowl and went to the living room, kept asking me to 不要客气 and eat more... well, maybe i have shown that i'm not comfortable.. but that's not the case worz... it's juz that i'm shy... and i have never ever thought that i will be sitting down with his dad at the dining table for a meal today... but, the experience is good... hahas... sorriees to sb's dad, for the awkwardness... you've been a good host, but i haven been a great visitor... hahas...

anyway, i helped to wash up all the plates and bowls after the meal okiee... hahas... with a little of sb's help... and after a while, his dad went out... which left me, sb and his bro at home... we stayed there till 3plus 4pm then leave... coz sb had a game of dota with sx... hahas.. shan't mention who win and who lose okiee...

went to jp thereafter... wanted to buy a pair of shoes... but din managed to get any... sadded... went to pizza hut for a meal... hahas.. my stubborness was too strong today... coz i wanted that pair of shoes too badly le.. decided to go je... poor sb, he went despite not wanting to... hahas.. but i did managed to get the shoes... and it's 10bucks lesser than the amount shir paid for... i did ask the shopkeeper why the price drops... and she said that they din re-stock for those shoes le, so muz sell all... therefore, discounts are given... take it easy, shir! hahas... after which, went to get a cup of bubble tea for sx... and home..

hmm... thanks dear for your tolerance.. you've been real nice today... and i've really enjoyed your company... we'll go watch rouge assassin someday okiee? i felt sting when it's time to leave for home... so sad... =( but it's okiee... we will meet up soon... and we muz okiee.. and thanks for keeping all those stuff... it brought back so much memories when i read them agn today... i will never let you go agn.. thanks for holding on... and i will try my best to diet for your sake okiee... hahas...

i miss you loads!
wo aii ni! =)

yea, results' out... i am satisfied... but i think i'm going to have a hard time next semester... the modules seem so much harder.. omg.. but have to work hard... coz i juz found out today from hy and shir that every semester's GPA counts... hmmm mm... well, haven gotten my time table yet... i wanna get a reasonable and fitting time table... time muz be about the same as sb's... but i doubt so sia... NP won't be so good to gib us a free day one lorx... =S

anyway, went to PS with hy and shir today... yq's supposed to join us.. but she got sth on at the last minute... it's okiee it's okiee... we'll all meet next wed.. =) hmm... we went jalan jalan... hy bought sth from fox.. shir bought sth from sasa.. and i bought sth from precious thots.. after which, we went to cartel for lunch... and and, we went to far east plaza after that.. the two of them bought a 'little miss' shirt while i bought sth from the shop - bus stop.. a blouse which i fall in love with the moment i saw it.. hahas..

yea... i will be meeting sb tml... hmm... looking forward, but still having a heavy heart... one day i don't see my time table, one day i will feel this way... and the diploma plus thingy... sianss sianss sianss...

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okiee... grumbling's over... i am looking forward to tml.. 15th september.. and there will be a good post to look forward too... and it's going to be my 100th post!! hahas.. =)

hmmm... woken up already... can't slp le... charging and changing the songs in ipod now... having tuition later... it's nearer to my house this time..

shan't say much.. no matter what i wanna say... no matter how many times i try to keep myself busy by doing other things... i cannot deny i will still miss him... more and more each time.. and yesh, he's my priority.. and i shall try not to argue and quarrel with him anymore..

i miss you..

came back from chalet not long ago... juz had a shower... came back with huiying.. xinyi left earlier... coz she was too tired and not feeling too well..

anyway, happy moments tend to pass the fastest... sianss... i don't wann time to pass so fast one... but still all things come to an end eventually... and here i am.. home~

had steamboat last night... well, we did bought a little too much ytd... coz there are leftovers... after that, played some games and drank some alcohol... hahas... but i'm not drunk... was under proper control... all thanks to sb... hahas... anyway, had a good slp last night and woke up early today... had wanted to wake him up too... but i failed in the end... no matter what i do, he won't wann to wake up... and i left with huiying when she woke up suddenly.. hahas..

not feeling too good... always wanna cry after the chalet.. not all chalets though... this is the second time i have this "wanna cry" feeling after chalet... maybe coz i cnt bear to part with him leh.. or maybe it's because we din say a proper goodbye.. hahas... :( oh well, it's okiee la... i will still meet him after he comes back... this friday... hmpff... still long worz... =S

and and... results are going to be release real soon... gosh! i wann a good GPA... i don't wann to get poor results... coz it's like i'm wasting a semester's time and effort... jia you! jia you! to all those who have gotten back their results... good anot, juz work harder the next time bax...

i miss sb loads..

went to grandma house early in the morning to help her... coz today got pray pray... then after that went to watch Ratatouille at jurong entertainment... went for a manicure before the movie... enjoying life? not really... i don't have the enjoying feel... hais... anyway, after the movie, walked from entertainment to the jurong west market there... got tuition around that area... block 457... took me 1hr and 5mins... i thought a lot during the walk.. but still got no conclusion to things...

will be going for chalet tml... hope it is going to turn out great and fun...

was so tired ytd.. slept around 10plus... din have to wait very long before i dosed off... hahas... had felt so tired and helpless when i was working around 12plus... but i felt better after working... coz i'll be having a week's break... after that, i went to buy some doughnuts.. for him... 6 different flavours... in the end, he told me the nicest one was the normal one... diao... nvm nvm... i felt so much more better after meeting him... although it was only for abt 5mins... all the tired-ness and eth was gone... =)

woken up early today.. went to have my weight taken... omg omg... it's been two weeks since i last weigh, but i have only lost 200g... so so sooooo pathetic can... ai yo... hahas... i am going to work hard now... i muz... hahas... no more nice treats for myself as often as in the past anymore... and and, went to a few farms today... the first one was the vegetable farm... old, and the vegs doesn't really look fresh... all turned yellowish already.. but it's got a resting shelter which is quite comfortable... =) next, we went to the fish farm... different types of fishes... and and, the kiddos went to the catching section... they were all so enthu abt it, tried their best to catch all the fishes... in the end, they did catch quite many... but but, it's a catch-and-release one... fishes are not allowed to be brought home... hahas... poor kiddos... they were sad but still, no choice... finally, we went to the Bollywood... it's also a farm... but more of a restaurant-farm... most of the food are organic, hence it's more expensive... but, the food ain't really great... especially the rice... it's so soggy and disgusting... =S

hahas... now i'm home, posting and resting... going to grandma house later for steamboat... omg... i won't eat too much... i promise! hahas.. sliming starts tml!!! =)

it's not too tiring in cartel today... hahas... eric's the dm... he's quite unreasonable at first... and i was irritated by that.. yiting too... but but, it got better in the end and i started to enjoy... yea...

went in 3mins later than i should... therefore, yiting and i decided to punched out 5mins later... hahas.. and we did... parted with her outside cartel... she's in a rush to meet her family...

after which... i met sb... we went to Kopitiam to eat... then go walk walk around... after a few rounds.. we went to swensens for ice cream... hahas.. nice... but sb always bully me!!! "heart-broken..." :( hahas... okiee la, he does make up for what he does...

sb, you have to dote on me more and more and more okiee? heehees... =)

have been home the whole day today... doing some things for the tuition... other than that, i've baked some muffins... =) and i cooked my lunch-dinner...

on top of that, i've been drinking water, drinking water and drinking more water... but my throat hurts whenever i drink water... haven eaten any medicines... it doesn't seem to work... the pain won't go away... no use taking so many tablets... hence, i have decided to let the pain go away naturally...

will be working tml... at cartel in the morning and giving tuition at night... but i will be meeting sb during the break in between... hahas... i have decided to enjoy whatever i do.. especially working.. coz like it anot, i still have to do it... all in all, it's just part and parcel of life... process of growing up... =)

i hate the polyclinic... sick anot, i will not go there agn... the time that i had wasted there while waiting to see the doctor, omg... only a word to describe- unbearable... it's as if you're waiting for sth that won't come... wanted to go off initially, but went back to wait in the end... his face is as black as mine... in fact, even more black than mine when i wanted to leave without seeing the doc... =S finally, it was my turn to see the doctor... and and, i had to go for blood test... but i was so brave can... i din scream at all... even though it's damn painful... tmd... the nurse turn and twist the needle coz she couldn't find my vein... i could already feel sth when the needle was poked into my skin, but no blood came out.. and that's when she started twisting... i wanted to burst into tears then, but i din... coz i had already cried while waiting to see the doc... shall not go further into it... coz it's not a nice experience... all in all, i went in at 9.29am and came out at 1.14pm... great, ain't it?

sorriees for asking you to come and end up asking you to leave early for mum had come to fetch me... thanks for your accompany today... although it's wasting time...

我的冲动需要你慢慢的谅解和细心的体谅，不是在我冲动时，比我还冲动。

i always believe that people who are sick tend to tear more easily.. :(

hmm mm... i liked the tuition lesson today... it was fun... hahas... but the boii's attention is really hard to catch... =S and and... hahas... his work is as if his mum's work... he asked his mum once he can't find the answer... without thinking... juz like my bro... =|

went to sakura with bro today... din eat much... wasted my money...

have been having fever for 6days... hmmm... if tml still like that then have to go see doc agn... get some antibiotics... cnt let it worsen further... but it's okiee de... nth will happen de... =)

i haven meet you for 4days le.. it's long... yes, it's been busy for you and me... days past quickly... but... when will i be meeting you worz? sians.. =S

din post ytd... was tired... and the headaches... omg... went to work in the morning... but left early... coz i felt sick to the stomach... and it's a sunday... but only one server... i serve and serve like it's never ending... knocked off at about 12.30pm and went for lunch with dad and mum... fish soup bee hoon... quite bland la... home after that and went to li hwa garden for dinner... and and, i ate rice... half a bowl... omg.. i'm getting bold..

supposed to work today... but i din go... coz the fever's still not down yet and the headches, it's never stopping too... juz went for lunch with aunt... pizza hut at JP... so many ppl... it's monday worz... ai yo... then went home... supposed to go supermarket to buy stuff for new recipes, but din wann to... no mood... supposed to go meet him, went halfway and turn back home... coz his break time changed... push forward by half an hour and i juz reached boon lay.. no point going.. and home i went agn... gotta give tuition later.. 7.30pm... looking forward to that... but i hope the headaches can go away... it's killing and it's only at the right side... from the eye till the back of the head... aaarrggh...

headaches, headaches and MORE headaches...

hmm... din post yesterday... too tired... and sick... gave tuition and gotten another student... a P2 gal... well well, gonna start next monday... 7.30pm to 9pm... i am looking forward...

din go work today... feel a little sorriees, to eric only... but i'm going tml... no matter what... although my fever has yet to subside... i guess i have to go... can't trouble eric agn... i aso don't wann them to feel that i'm shrinking my responsibilities to work... and and, i think i'm gonna give lesser schedule now since i am going to give tuition... hmm mm... well, life has to go on... no matter where i am, i hope things in cartel will work out the way it should... and let those people who need some rest get their rest...

giving tuition is really much simpler than working in cartel, and the pay is basically doubled or more... but there's definitely more responsibilities for giving tuition... have to ensure the kiddos can score and do well...

work hard!