worked the weekends.
first time as promoter.
time past quite fast.
not too bad after all. =)

got to know people and new things.
tiring but worth it.

strange enough.

"I hold it true, whatever befall;
I feel it, when I sorrow most;
It's better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all."

By: Alfred Tennyson

indeed, i had a really lousy day.
suffering like i am so poor thing.
but i am ok now.
at least i laughed from the bottom of my heart, no more bitter feelings.
thanks xJ's boy.

no point blurting and grumbling all over again.
maybe i asked for too much.
maybe i presumed too much.
maybe i think too much.
after all, i am just me.

i got to work hard to get what i wann.
i might not get it at the first try, i might waste a few more tries doing it..
but at least i don't give up.
rather than to go by the back door to get all means.
that is not commendable.

don't compare.
life is better that way.
i might live longer if i close my eyes to certain things.

i am gonna start from today, leave a quote everytime i blog.
some really meaningful and very inspiring quotes, at least for me.
i think talking is real easy, looking or finding quotes are as simple.
but to really know the moral of the meaning and doing it, hmmmmm.
it takes some effort.
i will try.

i think, it is time for me to change for the better.
in terms of how i speak to anyone, how i treat people i don't like.
stop taking things for granted, or believe in luck anymore.
i will try to observe and understand why a person behaves or acts that way.

hmmm.
suddenly, i feel better.
much better at least.
in life, those are the stepping stones to make a person grows up.
the more you dare to challenge, the more you step.
the more you step, the more you grow.
the more you grow, the better you will be.

come on, be inspired. =D

quote of the day:
For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

By: Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

oops, sorry.
i totally forgot about the date which we are supposed to have today, PRB.
maybe we can meet for dinners after next week where all of us should be more free already. =)

projects are coming to an end soon, i think.
at least i finished what i have on hand first, to prepare for what might come next.
hmmmm. i am hot-tempered when it comes to tying the end knots.
i just want to finish things beautifully, as in, try to make as little mistakes as possible.
sorry team mates.
wanting things to end fast makes me impatient.
i want to make things look good, not only on the surface.
so no hard feelings yep. =)

with that, i think it has been making me all tensed up and dear starts to wonder why i always so sian sian de.
i'm not la.
probably just some school-reopening fear.

hmmmmm. don't worry too much alright.
good luck for the coming common test.
the same for all the others who are having their papers when school reopens.

speaking about that, the 3 weeks holidays ended only in a blink.
i just started having the holiday mood.
i have yet to bake enough.
i have yet shop enough.
argh.

went to swensens for lunch with dear today.
watched kung fu panda.
nice show.
funny at some parts.
there's always a moral behind every cartoon movies i think.

last friday, i went to cartel for dinner with dear.
some changes to the menu again.
the students' menu look appealing though.
the 10% service charge is back.
all the staff i have seen are new.
even the taste of the food changed.
hmmmmm...

simple things can be made complicated, if we choose to do so.
like the kung fu panda's master said,
the past is history, the future is mystery and today is a gift.
either you live everyday happily or you sulk to make people around you feel the same.

have you ever thought about losing your loved ones before?
you won't know what comes tomorrow.

what if, you have not yet fulfil what you promised?
what if, you have quarrelled and fought with your loved one the day before?
what if, you refused to apologise for the sake of your pride and gets no more chance?

don't wait for the consequences to come then regret.
by then, repenting a million time is pointless.

there must be a reason behind everything we do.
forgive after you finished grumbling.
forget after you forgave.
everyone should get a chance again, limited or not.
it all depends on how much effort and time you can put on that person.
still, you choose the way you wann to live your days.

it is easy to say, but not when it comes to doing, even for myself.
since i chose to love you, i will not wait for the time to come to regret.
be it who is right and who is wrong.
it always takes 2 hands to clap.

. . . . . . .

a pleasant time i had at kukup.

all i do is shop, eat, shop, eat..
although the sea produces pungent smell, i like the cooling wind that blows all the time.
relaxed, kampong life.
compared to the hectic life in singapore, i think the kids there lead a stress-free life.

no doubt, singapore is so much cleaner than kukup.
but, singapore is a realistic society.
everybody is taught in a way that they should study in order to get a job in future, and while working, upgrade to get a better post.
perhaps this is due to the lack of resources and land area.
almost everybody in kukup live in houses that they built.
the richer ones will have their houses built like palaces.
they grow vegetables, sun-tan the salted fish, make resorts or open shops to earn their living.
in fact, i don't see many employees.
most of the families would rather work harder themselves than to hire outside people to work for them.
it is hard work, but they enjoy the harvest later.

kids do not fear even though it's their first time speaking to us.
they can introduce all types of marine life they grow.
they will ride the bicycle or some older ones the scooter, and go everywhere.
here, kids are locked up or so pampered that they do not speak to anybody, they fussed about everything.

memorable experience.
very nice.
hopefully, there will be a next time. =)

visited blue cross today.
as in the past, those people there are still the same.
if you have been there before, there is no need to explain.
perhaps, the only difference could be that there are more new residents now..
omg.

i will be going to kukup tomorrow, in a part of Malaysia.
argh, don't miss me ok.
i will be back by evening, 15th june.

dear, please take good care of your health.
love yourself more when i'm not around.
i will not forget what i wanna do for you.
for you, you can choose if you wanna do it anot, it's alright ok.
don't forget to treasure the 40plus hours of freedom. . .
you might not get such chance anymore in future. =D

in short,
i love you.

i had great fun for PRB gathering yesterday.
all the laughter, souring and experiences we had among us.

fun shopping at vivo although all of us din managed to get a lot of what we wanted.
haha.
i think the breaded street sausage was nice. hmmm..
after which, we went to marina square.
some more shopping and off to hotpot culture..
actually, there wasn't really much choices for the buffet part?
but, the menu buffet was great. more to choose from. nicer too.
WE ordered a lot from there ya. =P
and three cheers for yan qiu! =D
she helped to finish the food so that there won't be wastage. but she don't eat all kinds of food.
for those that she don't, the rest of us got to finish them with scissors, paper, stone.
so well, we finished off with the ice cream which i don't think taste really like ice cream.. sort of, faked ones! although i had the most of it. haha.

no heels for shopping, it will kill.

anyway, we went to see see how yanling film after that.
she was disfiguring "teddy" or "terry" face.
that's what i heard..
but she did a good job! so real it seem.

cabbed home then.
it's ok huiying, yanling and shirley for not being able to come.
there are gonna be other chance. =)

dear. please. please. . .
sometimes, i don't wann to mention some things but i hope you will know.
that is ridiculous i understand.
but i dunno how to phrase them in such a way you will understand and i will not hurt anybody with the words.
i hope you do, i hope you know.

i love you.

watched sex and the city a few days back with Dear.

i am already 18, so i can watch legally. but for dear...
Yet. . . haha. it's only for you and me to know.

anyway,
the show was long but funny, and it's got a nice plot although there wasn't high climax.
it's a catch, cause it shows how friends can remain friends forever; how relationships should be maintained.

haha.

a week is almost over.
holidays are left with two more weeks. ONLY
i have managed to get more rest, although it's still not enough.

anyway, the baby is lovable. looks bigger than when he was born. chubby. in 6 more days, he's gonna be a month old. he is Vilmos Chua Jia Jun. strange and difficult-to-pronounce name, but we got the same "Jia". haha. =)

anyone got websites to intro where i can watch hong kong and taiwan dramas?
hmmm. i wanna finish watching the Wars of in-laws 2, but mysoju.com only upload till epi 15, when the full drama is till epi 20. i wanna watch the feng yun 2, but i couldn't find it.
goodness.

whatever it is, i still have projects to complete. hmmm.. i'm gonna visit blue cross on the 13th june. anybody wanna join in? hmmmmmmm. . .

quarrels keep relationship alive.
true, but i think there are many other ways to maintain my relationship.
why resort to quarrels when there is no need to?
=P
i like you.