had a heartfelt talk with bro's best fren jux now.

this guy is matured, to talk sensible stuff, think for the best of all parties, and most importantly, knows what is best for him.
and for that, his family never had to worry about his studies, and always, he brings home good results.
he knows what's in his future, he knows when to talk about relationship and when to work hard.
the only flaw in him is, he said that DOTA is his life.

DOTA is my enemy.
i don't see what's so nice about it, but somehow, it's part and parcel of my loved and cared ones.

i don't ask for a lot.
i just hope my brother can be more sensible. to think about my parents when he does things. sometimes, he would rather make my parents angry than to let that girl wait for a while.

and i hope for the best for him for this mid-year exam.
if the results don't improve, i am going to do something.
I WILL DO SOMETHING!
at least if i do something, i won't feel guilty for not helping him at all at the end of the day.

to all who takes dota hard in life, please do not neglect what you shouldn't, or you are gonna regret one fine day, all by yourself. for you do not deserve sympathy at all!

so well. . .

away from blogs for a week or so.
not reading. no post.

i am getting used to school's hours.
the things i had to do and sorts.
there are still things which i cannot accept,
major or minor.
i cannot change the fact that it's happening, so i shall adapt slowly.

nobody remains the same after living so long.
there are bound to be changes.
like it or not,
you cannot change others, you can only accept what others expect you to accept.

at least that's what my mum told me..
since you cannot do anything to change it, then do nothing.
close two eyes and things will get better.

true or not?
i'm still wondering about it.
hmmmm..

i will work hard, strive hard for this semester.
less examinable modules = more more and more projects.

i will prepare myself.
be prepared to face anything, in time to come.

sometimes, things just don't go the way we want, no matter how hard we try to compromise to get it. it's of no use.

only if i can have everything the way i want it to be,
i wouldn't have been so lost already.

time is the limiting factor!
=\

got the sudden urge to post something.
hahas.

a week had past for school.
finally it's weekends.
i'm extremely tired even though there ain't much to do in school yet.
probably due to lessons at 9am almost everyday.

my dark circles are soooooo terrible.
i had to do something soon.
bx said it's somewhere near to my cheekbones already.

i'm glad we got closer, not the whole group though.
but at least, i speak out anything more freely and won't feel awkward for saying those things.
i think that's the way, isn't it?
you don't fear anything you say and do cause you know how your friends will react.

these modules i am taking don't seem to be having common test but there's still exams.
so well, more projects are definitely gonna to come.
and talking about projects means grouping.
oh well. . .

it's only been 2 days, but i am still ok with the lessons.
nothing much happens in class.
but outside classes, things are different. i earned money. xP
and today, if not for them, i dunno how long i will take to finish everything.

a friend in need is a friend indeed..
although these poly mates might be the newest to me,
they helped, nagged, scold, share and motivate whenever possible.
so, let's continue this way.
everything will turn out good as long as we don't give up.

thanks for the big help today..=)

school's gonna start tomorrow.
no point grumbling anymore cause it's got to come someday.

i just hope for a better semester.
better bondings among classmates.
it's the second year.
let bygones be bygones and let's all move on.
don't hold grudges and hurt each other ok.

i also hope that lessons can end early, or else i'm going to rush like nobody's business but still end up late. i don't wanna cab down, i am saving! have to constantly remind myself la. hahas.

smiles.
8 weeks to term break.

holidays!! =)

went out with sweeties today.

hahas.
to bugis.
to shop.
we had a nice time doing manicure or pedicure. let's skip the little parts! xP
but, we cannot always do those things to waste money ah. need to SAVE money!
taken neoprints too. it's the first time. . =)

after which, wendy rushed for tuition while bx and i went to jp for another small round of shopping. we managed to get a bag each in the end. nice nice nice.

a get-together once in a while is treasured.
no matter how long we can stay close, the important thing is to be contented now.
with whatever we have.
like wendy said, god is fair.
some things we get it good, some not so.

nevertheless, school is gonna start.
i'm glad we managed to catch up a little before school starts.

my photo album is half-way done.
i can't wait to show it to you.

love all.
no matter how busy life is, think about the happy times when you are down.
i'm always a phone away.

not contacting doesn't mean forgotten.
some things can never be forgotten as each person already had a stand in the heart.

=)

today shall be the day i will never wann to forget, my whole life. =)

went to sentosa with dearest.
it was extremely enjoyable.
both the fun and the company.
dear made me laughed a lot and accommodate to all my "photos" request despite that he really hates taking photos.
a tourist attraction place, thus expenses today are high too.
a birthday could spend quite an amount of hard-earned money of dearest, heartache!
i'll treasure, i promise i promise.
a promise made shall be a promise kept.

i am gonna get a photo album and have all the nice nice photos inside.
the sweetest memory i'm gonna have,
anytime and any when.
i'll be able to look at it again.

chen shibing.
i have decided to be with you for the rest of my life.
let's get marry at the age of 28.
for now, we shall study hard, play hard, work hard.
i am not intending to let go anymore, so should you!

IMY. INY. IWY. ILY.
forever.

heh heh heh.

i had a really fabulous time with PRB today.

thanks darlings for spending the time, effort and presents too.
it's the sweet thought that really counts.

a few of us went to zoo this morning.
and we took so many many photos.
i like la.
hahas.
we spent quite a few hours there and seen all the animals.
some of them are really lovely.
but the pungent smell.
it's unbearable.
too bad i din get to see the elephants' big big faeces.

hmmm. we went for pool after that.
hahas.
don't play too well, if not, others will fear. .
wahaha.
anyway, i will like to play with shirley tan someday.

and we went to fish and co for a meal after that.
initially was streets, but changed our minds and walked out after that.
it's not very nice, but i din regret it.
fish and co has got marvellous service crews and the little surprise was not too bad.
just a little shy standing there la.
hahas.
at first, i was like.
what sia.
i must cooperate with them to get a 10% off the bill.
and all my best frens are like, okok. deal deal.
omg. if they asked me to act bimbo how?
i could only think of that coz yanling was acting that at the time.
so well. . .
luckily, it was just standing on the chair.
too bad xinyi can't join us for the dinner coz it's her dad's b'dae.

and and, i got to mention something!
after coming out from fish and co, i wanted to go to McDonalds to get bro a meal.
and all along, i knew there's something fishy between linda and shin miin.
and all the time when they wanna do something, i will turn to look at them and grin.
hahas. then they will keep their hands and look around.
girls, i know what you are trying to do coz shin miin spoke too loudly le.
she mentioned something like, later after she pay, we count 1 2 3 then take out, then say happy b'dae tgr ok?
linda will say, okok.
then etym when they count, i will look at them. then again they will act like nothing happen.
heehees.

but..
what matter most is, at least i get to take photos with every single one.
best frens stand by one another no matter how difficult things can be sometimes.
just a word of console can mean a thousand pictures too.

you people made my day.
one that is really memorable.

love love love the sweeties.

sorriees dearest i made you sooooo worried.
hahas.
i love you too.

=)

alright.
things are keeping on the right track once again.
hope this will last.

=)

i'm gonna continue with it.
and i've gotten a new assignment which i'm gonna start next tues.

hmmmm..
school's starting.
but somehow, i don't dread.
hahas.
probably cause i'm looking at the bright bright side.
instead of spending time to dread the re-opening of school,
why not enjoy now and welcome school the week after next and hope for the next holidays to come again?

xD

whatever happened today.
it's totally the opposite of what i expected.

how come?
should i continue?

i'm tired already.
no matter how hard i try. .
my patience will be used up soon.
maybe it's time to move on.

haiss.

Ooohooo.

it's April already. school's gonna start in due time.
hmmmm ..
i'm easily tired these days.
no matter how much i slp.
it's not enough.
often having headaches and blurred sights.
something's so wrong.

well,
i went out yesterday.
with hy, and two other friends.
it was nice.
although the topics are always the same. .
at least we took neoprints before going off.
they are memories to be kept.
lovely memories.

i'm not myself again.
maybe because i think too much.
and worry the unnecessary.

anyway, i'm gonna finish watching my girl soon.
it's nice.
very very nice.
telling lies ain't good, but sometimes,
they are remedies for people to live on.

everything has two sides.
it's jux how you look at it.
but, i always look at the negative side.
for i fear to fall badly from positive hopes. . .