now. everything has changed.

I AM NOT GOING FOR OVERSEAS INTERNSHIP ANYMORE.

hmmm. why the sudden change?

it is due to several reasons.

however, the most important reason is, i will only be getting 500RMB for allowance. but, i need to fork out 700RMB for rental fees, 50RMB for internet and 85RMB for utilities bills and in total sums up to 835RMB. look, i am only earning 500RMB every month but i had to fork out 835RMB. doesn't seem too reasonable for me to go.

secondly, i can't possibly be spending a large sum of money, be it mine or parents' money, and they will still need to worry for me every single day when i am away. i will be too selfish if i go despite that.

and up till now, i have yet to get my subsidy. and what's more, a lecturer had calculated for me and mentioned that i will probably only be getting S$1200 to S$1300, which will only be enough for an air ticket.

the lecturer who is in charge of me for attachment mentioned before that the main purpose of overseas trip is to enrich learning, but money is an issue, ain't it? i can't go against everybody for a trip.

now that i have decided to stay in Singapore, my parents are much much happier and my dad told me it's a burden off his heavy-enough shoulder.

but, as i opt out only now, i am probably left with in-house project for attachment. which means for six months i will be going back to school every day from 9 to 5 or 6 to do project. although it's going to be very very tough for me, but at least my parents are happy with my decision. i will just have to work doubly hard and get over with poly life.